AFTER ONE & HALF YEAR...

it's been long since i write year.... after 1 & half year suddenly i feel like writing.... something is coming my mind.... i feel like rambling but not sure where to.... suddenly i remember here, my blog.... my abandoned blog.....

 my best friend call me just now... it's been long since we talk.. last time we talk might be b4 raya (?)... not sure.... anyway off all the topic, something really caught my intention.... "we might think we really know that person, but in reality, we never know him/her..."

in my teenage day, i like this one person... not sure when i start to like him... it just, i do like him.... if people ask me " why u like him?" i don't know what to answer... i really don't know... maybe i feels like he is a good person... he seems like a good person... he that i know is a good person...

i never tell him that i like him but people do gossip us here & there... not sure why i never told him... maybe i got my ego... or maybe i just that anak dara pingitan yg x kn confess x kira lah suka giler camane pn...i just keep the feeling till my dip/ degree day (?)... can't remember...

one day, i saw his pic w his gf in his fb... i do feel frustrated... ahh no... at the time i saw it, i really REALLY REALLY frust..... keeping the feeling for years, i don't expect this to come... my pure & naive teenage heart really don't expect this... i feel like crying a lot... i don't know who to share bcoz i never told anyone abt my feeling....

after some time, i gain some courage so i look at the pic again... the person that i like for years is hugging his gf shoulder... this is when i realized, is he that kind of person? is he the kind of hugging or touching people without any legal r/ship??? at that time i feel like something duk ketuk kt kepala.... this is not what i hope... this is not the person i like... this is not the person i know for years.... all the feeling just die... feels like, "okay, this is reality.." people do change... plus i don't even know him in & out... actually, i really don't know him... i don't really like him... i just like his outer character that he show to everyone... i don't know the character inside him... 

this, really make me realized, " i think i know him, but i really don't know him.." this is reality... this is what i learn... after that, i don't really put trust on people... i do trust people but i rarely trust what i see... don't judge people form his outside, find out about inside too... a person might look great outside but bad inside & vice verse....