BANG CHIK

Last saturday, waking up at 4.30 AM sbb dgar bising2 kt luar... FYI, wake up at 3/4 AM is normal in our house; ibu mmg bkak kdai awl klu byk order tp bising2 mmg x normal... I usually don't even realised ibu already left the house.. dengar ibu nangis.. teesedu-sedu.... Ahh this is weird... Really need to check it out...

Ayah terlanggar Bang Chik... Biasa lh pukul 4 kn gelap lgi, mana nk nmpk kucing kt tayar... Alhamdulillah terlanggar skit je.. smpat brek.. klu x, innalillah lh jwb nye.. still, he get hurt... Muntah darah.. luaran mmg xde pape... xde patah kaki or luka but keluar darah means dlm teruk lh kn...  mana lh ibu x nangis teruk pgi2... Ayh angkt dia, letak tpi rumah... Mmg x bergerak smpai tgah hari... Then ble blik dr kdai, nmpk dia dh gerak skit, alhamdulillah.. ptg trus bwak g klinik... Before blik hari ahd, dia dh ok... Dh main2 kt luar... Alhamdulillah...

Bang Chik mmg special pn dlm rmh.. all cat are special but he got different story... Rumah, mmg xde bela kucing pn.. de pn yg dtg2 je... Tp 1 hari, ibu or my sis jmpe kucing siam. Org buang sbb mata x nmpk.. de sawan skali tp mse mula2 mmg xtau lh. Tau mata je... Bwak blik rmh.. jaga elok2... Then after few months got a baby.. 4 ekor... Tp sume mati, tggl sekor je... Bang Chik lh tu... Kucing siam aka Gemok mmg xnmpk... De skali tu, hilang seminggu sbb xtau jln balik rmh... Alhamdulillah jmpe semula... Tp ble dh jmpe blik, dia x igt Bang Chik dh... Dh lupa bau ank so x peduli langsung psal Bang Chik... Tumbesaran Bang Chik terbantut... Bsar tu je.. Kak Long bwak g klinik, bg mkn ubt sume... Nxt time balik, dh x knal dh sbb dh bsar sgat... Kak Long & Ibu mmg jaga sgat Bang Chik sbb tu rse affectionate sgt dgn Bang Chik..  so it's normal for them to cry if anything happen to it..yg jmpe sekali, dua sebulan ni pn rse syg sgat kot...

Up to today, ibu dgn Kak Long x ckp pape pn psal Bang Chik so i assume he is okay..... I hope so....

WAITING IS INDEED TIRING

Waking up with heart ready to be scolded and body ready to be tired but don't know it will be this tiring...

I got meeting today... With everything done in rush, i know i will be scolded... For sure.. but it's okay... Alrdy prepare my heart & mind for that... but right now,  22:30 pm, i still waiting for my turn...

We got two team... Alrdy informed that another team will discuss first but still, i got here on 15:30pm, coming together with another team.. expecting their meeting to last for 2-3 hour so our team can take turn after maghrib.. but now is 22:32 and they are no done yet... They have several thing to discuss... Several area too... Ahh we are done... Really... These meeting need to be done today.. another day is not accepted... The Q are, what time will we start our meeting??? what time it will finish??? Got several issue to discuss b4 they start with my account... Ahh i'm tired... Can't think right.... Can't answer right too... Too sleepy too... Can somebody please save me...

Extra note : i wish this meeting done in my office so i can at least take a nap or even sleep while waiting... I will have a deep sleep in that 7 hr of waiting...

Extra extra note : i'm tired... Can't think right... Forgive my babbling... I will appreciate it if someone can save me....

Extra Extra Extra Mental Breakdown : i don't even get in the meeting room that night... just wasting my 8 hours with waiting.. just done my meeting today (03.12.2014)... Alhamdulillah nothing much happen.....

BREAKFAST??? LUNCH????

Weekend are always a bad day for my stomach... A struggling day, maybe??? Hehe... I always, always make sure that i take my breakfast every morning before start working but weekend is totally a differeny story... 
Wake Up late??? No. That's not the reason... Never taught my body to do that... Even tbe2 rasa nk bangun lmbt, nk bgun tgah hari, (yelah weekend kn),it's not going to happen... My body don't allow me... Taught myself well, right??? Hehe... So, pe yg buat bfast jadi lunch???? 
MALAS!!!! Malas byk sgat...klu dh bgun awl pn, duk guling2 ats katil, layan novel or main game...hehe... nk turun bwah bt bfast?? Mmg ssh lh.... My body must hate me ble x blik kg... Duk rmh sewa means i will be so lazy.... Bfast ke mne... Lunch dgn dinner lgi lh.... I'm bad, right??? X jaga amanh ALLAH dgn baik... But really, bad habit hard to change..

STARTING

It's 00:38 when i write here... I'm lying in the bed, trying to get sleep... It's early right??? not really actually but still earlier than yesterday, right???

I'm trying to sleep early... I plan to sleep at 11 but ended up switch off lappy at 12:++.. and now still not sleeping...hehe... Then where is the early part??? Still guling2 dgn henfon kt tgn... Ttup lappy tp smbg kt henfon plak... changing my schedule is totally hard... But i'm trying, right??? I might sleep a bit earlier tomorrow... Who know??? Only ALLAH S.W.T know...

Ttup lappy 👉 off data 👉 ttup lampu 👉 baring 👉 sleep (maybe).... The best way to make me sleep early... Gonna sleep now... Jaljayo.... Good night...

00:48.... ASSALAMUALAIKUM.... 😴😴😴😴😴

CHANGE FOR BETTER

It's 2.48am... It's sleeping time right??? But i just done watching what i want to watch... And i need to wake up at 6.30 or 7.00 at least... That's mean, i only got 4 hour of sleep... That's not good right??? That's totally not good... I know that... I totally understand the effect... I did feel it.. my body feel it a lot... But i still do it.. 

I certainly know the good feeling of having an ample sleep but that's hard for me to do... People said, "it's only hard at the beginning. It will be better as time goes."... That's true, starting is the hardest.. i do try it but after two days, i start sleeping late again... It's really hard... 

What am i doing sleeping this late??? People can guess, it's easy... I'M WATCHING KPOP.. i'm watching it a lot... Already cut down the drama but i still have lots to watch... Am i being too greedy?? Yes i am.. got lots to watch in a less time... And my greedy heart want to finish it faster... Don't want to wait... My greedy heart... My fault, right??? I should follow my brain but what am i doing with my heart???

Ahhh i should change... I should cut off all this KPOP... Can't watch all thing... Can't be greedy... Follow my brain... Ignore my heart... Should change for a better future... My body need his rest.. change... LET'S CHANGE.... LET'S REALLY CHANGE.... LET'S TRY MY BEST...

LET'S SLEEP.. 

Done babling.... TUESDAY - 03.03

AFTER ONE & HALF YEAR...

it's been long since i write year.... after 1 & half year suddenly i feel like writing.... something is coming my mind.... i feel like rambling but not sure where to.... suddenly i remember here, my blog.... my abandoned blog.....

 my best friend call me just now... it's been long since we talk.. last time we talk might be b4 raya (?)... not sure.... anyway off all the topic, something really caught my intention.... "we might think we really know that person, but in reality, we never know him/her..."

in my teenage day, i like this one person... not sure when i start to like him... it just, i do like him.... if people ask me " why u like him?" i don't know what to answer... i really don't know... maybe i feels like he is a good person... he seems like a good person... he that i know is a good person...

i never tell him that i like him but people do gossip us here & there... not sure why i never told him... maybe i got my ego... or maybe i just that anak dara pingitan yg x kn confess x kira lah suka giler camane pn...i just keep the feeling till my dip/ degree day (?)... can't remember...

one day, i saw his pic w his gf in his fb... i do feel frustrated... ahh no... at the time i saw it, i really REALLY REALLY frust..... keeping the feeling for years, i don't expect this to come... my pure & naive teenage heart really don't expect this... i feel like crying a lot... i don't know who to share bcoz i never told anyone abt my feeling....

after some time, i gain some courage so i look at the pic again... the person that i like for years is hugging his gf shoulder... this is when i realized, is he that kind of person? is he the kind of hugging or touching people without any legal r/ship??? at that time i feel like something duk ketuk kt kepala.... this is not what i hope... this is not the person i like... this is not the person i know for years.... all the feeling just die... feels like, "okay, this is reality.." people do change... plus i don't even know him in & out... actually, i really don't know him... i don't really like him... i just like his outer character that he show to everyone... i don't know the character inside him... 

this, really make me realized, " i think i know him, but i really don't know him.." this is reality... this is what i learn... after that, i don't really put trust on people... i do trust people but i rarely trust what i see... don't judge people form his outside, find out about inside too... a person might look great outside but bad inside & vice verse.... 

VIEWER....

There are ppl viewing my post!!!

Shocked or speechless… can’t find d bst word…some ppl view my post..maybe they jst randomly open my page but I’m happy and a bit shy for that…knowing tht I only merepek there make me shy…but they been reading it years ago right??? Then it’s ok, they won’t remember anything….hehe…

But I’m gonna post a lots after this…mostly abt my K-pop craze & book reading time..hehe…n jst a little bit abt my life..not gonna post much abt my life ( rse nye lh…)

I’m not writing 4 viewer but I found tht this is d bst place 2 pour what in my mind…not many viewer n not much ppl know I even hv a blog…great choice right???hehe… anybody know me know tht I talk a lot…so don’t surprise if I write a lot here too…