AFTER ONE & HALF YEAR...

it's been long since i write year.... after 1 & half year suddenly i feel like writing.... something is coming my mind.... i feel like rambling but not sure where to.... suddenly i remember here, my blog.... my abandoned blog.....

 my best friend call me just now... it's been long since we talk.. last time we talk might be b4 raya (?)... not sure.... anyway off all the topic, something really caught my intention.... "we might think we really know that person, but in reality, we never know him/her..."

in my teenage day, i like this one person... not sure when i start to like him... it just, i do like him.... if people ask me " why u like him?" i don't know what to answer... i really don't know... maybe i feels like he is a good person... he seems like a good person... he that i know is a good person...

i never tell him that i like him but people do gossip us here & there... not sure why i never told him... maybe i got my ego... or maybe i just that anak dara pingitan yg x kn confess x kira lah suka giler camane pn...i just keep the feeling till my dip/ degree day (?)... can't remember...

one day, i saw his pic w his gf in his fb... i do feel frustrated... ahh no... at the time i saw it, i really REALLY REALLY frust..... keeping the feeling for years, i don't expect this to come... my pure & naive teenage heart really don't expect this... i feel like crying a lot... i don't know who to share bcoz i never told anyone abt my feeling....

after some time, i gain some courage so i look at the pic again... the person that i like for years is hugging his gf shoulder... this is when i realized, is he that kind of person? is he the kind of hugging or touching people without any legal r/ship??? at that time i feel like something duk ketuk kt kepala.... this is not what i hope... this is not the person i like... this is not the person i know for years.... all the feeling just die... feels like, "okay, this is reality.." people do change... plus i don't even know him in & out... actually, i really don't know him... i don't really like him... i just like his outer character that he show to everyone... i don't know the character inside him... 

this, really make me realized, " i think i know him, but i really don't know him.." this is reality... this is what i learn... after that, i don't really put trust on people... i do trust people but i rarely trust what i see... don't judge people form his outside, find out about inside too... a person might look great outside but bad inside & vice verse.... 

VIEWER....

There are ppl viewing my post!!!

Shocked or speechless… can’t find d bst word…some ppl view my post..maybe they jst randomly open my page but I’m happy and a bit shy for that…knowing tht I only merepek there make me shy…but they been reading it years ago right??? Then it’s ok, they won’t remember anything….hehe…

But I’m gonna post a lots after this…mostly abt my K-pop craze & book reading time..hehe…n jst a little bit abt my life..not gonna post much abt my life ( rse nye lh…)

I’m not writing 4 viewer but I found tht this is d bst place 2 pour what in my mind…not many viewer n not much ppl know I even hv a blog…great choice right???hehe… anybody know me know tht I talk a lot…so don’t surprise if I write a lot here too…

KEBOSANAN MELAMPAU....

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...


bosan!!! rasa bosan giler..xtau nk bt pe..walaupun mggu dpan test berderet-deret still xde feel nk study..ape nk bt yerk...tgah on9 pn bosan, klu x on9 cmne plakyerk..mungkin saya patut balik n join adik2 tgok bola..that might be a good thing to do rather than duk mcm org bodoh, m'cari-cari ape nk bt...saya seriously tersangat lh bosan..rasa cm nk giler dihimpit kebosanan...ngee what to do?? somebody tell me?? saya pn xtau pe yg sye tulis..it comes out from the boredness...


WASALAM.......

ANOTHER YEAR FOR ME.......

ASSALAMUALAIKUM…

Pjam celik, pjam celik, I’m already 23..is it true???x blh plak xnk p’caye kn….ALHAMDULILLAH ALLAH S.W.T pnjg kn umr smpai m’cecah 23 thun….tapi b’tmbh nye 1 thun b’mksud b’tmbh nye tanggungjwab…

Ble d renung2 blik 1 thun yg dh b’lalu, I can’t even remember what a wise thing that I done….have I done anything good???klu ada pn rse nye blum ckup byk lg..blum ckup b’kesan lg dlm hdup…that’s means this year of life I have to do something wise with my life…xde lh buat bnde yg sme je spnjg thun kn..mesti de something…tapi….pe yerk???can’t even think now..haha…. but I will figure it out later..

Pepun to all family-ibu, ayah, k.long, k.cha, tatiey, bang mi n adik n also all relatives…thanks for every good days we share n 4 the wish of course….love u all very much….

To friends-koteng, ieyna, lynda, ijad, ieyta, lila, wani, miza, ano, ziela,yus, nad, nadia, andi , hafiz, k.akma,ayu, shafa, dija, misa, nissa and sume lh yg wish…thanks a lot….u coloured my life with great moment..thanks for being with me through good n hell….you’re the best…..

Wish me the best for the coming year…and most importantly MAY GOOD BLESS ME 4 ever….inshaaallah….amin…..

WASALAM.....

KAHWIN!!!!!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

Manusia zaman skrg mmg lain sgt klu nk d banding kn dgn zman dahulu.. klu dulu2 org kawin skali je tp skrg de yg kahwin smpai 4,5 kli. Nk slh kn siapa? Zman yg dh b’ubh atau cara pemikirn manusia yg b’ubh? nk slah kn diri sndiri pn x blh sbb masa kahwin, sure sume org doa kn p’khwinan kekal smpai ke akhir hayat. Xde org yg khwin utk b’cerai! Tapi ble d fikir2, b’sungguh ke kita nk kekal kn p’khwinan 2?  apa usaha yg kita dh buat utk kekal kn p’khwinan 2?

Org kata jgn kahwin muda sb pemikirn kita blum ckup matang lg utk handle sebuah p’kahwinan. Betul ke? X semua org yg kahwin muda b’cerai kot.. ramai je yg masih kekal smpai skrg. Bahagia lagi! Sbnr nye, yg pntg cara pemikirn n hati kita. Klu kita letak dlm otak kita ‘kahwin muda ssh nk kekal’ itu lh yg jdi. Cuba klu kita fikir yg kahwin muda 2 akn b’jaya klu ada usaha utk kekal kn nya. Klu hati n otak kita still fikir nk enjoy sbb masih muda then this is why p’kahwinan 2 x mnjadi.

Saya blum kahwin lagi! Belum juga b’jmpa calonnya. Saya bukan memilih tp saya ada kelemahan, bila saya suka some1, saya akn suka dia smpai saya confirm dia x suka saya or dia dh de some1 better than me. So even ada orang suka kat saya, saya ssh nk terima. Kenapa? Sbb saya takut saya x ikhlas pd dia. What if I accept dia n 1 day org yg saya suka approach saya? Apa yg patut saya bt? Saya takut saya akn menyesal n mula rasa x ikhlas pd yg dia. Itu yg saya takut. Itu yg saya xnk rasakn.

Sebab lain ialah susah nk cari manusia yg baik skrg. Bukan mksd saya xde org yg baik . ada tp ssh nk d cari. Lagi 1, org yg baik selalunya dh ada org yg punya. Saya x m’cari kesempurnaan sbb saya tahu saya x sempurna . cukup lh klu dpt seseorang yg ckup agamanya n kukuh ekonominya. Jangan kata saya mata duitan sbb mncari yg b’duit. Tapi d zaman skrg ni, semua org sedar kot yg duit mmg pntg. Saya x minx yg kaya-raya, yg ada banglo 3,4 buah atau kereta besar 5,6 buah. Cukup lh ada kerja tetap yg mnjamin. Klu ada harta pn, ckup lh ada rumh tmpt b’teduh n knderaan utk b’grak. X perlu bsar2. Saya bukan manusia yg lahir atas sudu emas. Saya hanya manusia biasa yg mana dr kecil ke mana2 hny menaiki bs. 7 org adik beradik, berderet-deret lh tggu bas. Jd kesempurnaan bkn pilihn saya.

 

Org kata kita kena terima org yg syg kn kita n bkn org yg kita syang tp blh ke sesuatu hbng 2 mnjadi klu kita xde perasaan syg kt dia? Tahu dh mesti org akn kata, syg blh d pupuk! Tp semudah mana rasa syg 2 blh d pupuk klu hati n minda kita mengingat org yg kita syg even org yg syg kn kita ada di dpan mata? Klu utk b’kwan, mungin kita ada masa utk betul kn keadaan tp cmne klu kita dh kahwin? Apa lg cara yg kita ada utk btul kn keadaan? Sbb 2 saya sgt ssh utk terima org. Saya takut bt slah even saya tahu manusia biasa mmg akn bt slah. Bg saya, klu saya d paksa bt sesuatu yg saya mmg x suka, saya akn hlng rasa hormat kt seseorg 2. Mcm mana klu itu yg terjadi? Apakh mkna nye dia mnjadi suami saya klu saya tiada rasa hormat itu?

P’ceraian yg makin mnjadi2 juga bt saya takut. Bkn saja dikalangan artist p juga org biasa n bg saya artis juga manusia  biasa yg bt kesilapn. Bt saya b’fikir, ckup matang kh saya utk b’khwin? Blh saya mnjadi isteri yg baik? Saya xtahu. Bg saya semua soaln ni hny blh d jwab ble kita m’hadapi nya. Selagi kita x melalui reality yg sbnr nya, kita xkn tahu. Mungkin skrg kita rasa kita x cukup matang utk semua tu tp bila kita melalui nya, kita blh lakukan dgn baik. Who know right? ALLAH S.W.T. je yg tau.

Bt masa skrg ni, saya hny mampu b’doa utk b’jmpa dgn lelaki yg blh m’bimbing saya ke jln ALLAH S.W.T. dan juga mempunyai sebuah keluarga yg bahagia hingga akhir hayat mcm family saya skrg. Bg saya b’gaduh 2 prkara biasa cuma bnde 2 sume jgn d smpn hingga jd dendam. Kadang2 dgn b’gaduh lh kita x dpt knal someone better. Bila saya akn kahwin? Nobody knows n I don’t even know it. Just doakn yg t’baik utk saya. After all i’m only 22 n got 2 sisters who not marry yet.  Better to let them pass 1^st right?

MY DREAM WEDDING RING- SIMPLE YET BEAUTIFUL

WASSALAM.......

NAKAL KE?

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

BUDAK NAKAL! wajar ke aku digelar bdk nakal hny krn aku ske mengusik? bkn nk cite pasal aku touching ke hape but ini jst p'tanyaan..jst my curiousity!!! i am nakal n suka mengusik p kena tgok org gak lh...klu yg bru2 kenal 2, aku sure diorg akn label aku sbagai 'WANIEY YG DIAM N PEMALU'. p klu dh lama knal i'm sure diorg akn menyesal melabelkn aku dgn semua 2...aku x malu ngaku yg aku mmg kecoh..kdg2 kecoh giler kot..p aku happy jd cmni.. at least i'm not being hypocrite...

so the latest kenakaln yg aku buat ialah post gmbr org tido kt FB.. xde lh nakal sgt kot...p memndangkn gmbr 2 gmbr curi n xde spe yg tau kitorg amik, jd kontroversi lh kot..dlm 1 mlm je, dh de 120 komen! sejarah kot dlm Fb aku..xpnah cmni..bangga pn de p lpas 2 cuak plak..haha..dh bt br nk fikir yerk..

ni lh gmbr kontroversi yg b'jaya mengutip 163 komen stakat ari ni

sbnrnye gmr ni hasil usaha niera yg menangkap guna camera aku, aku yg m'upload n ziela yg join d club..4 sure lh aku yg kena dlu sbb upload dr page aku..mmg klakar giler lh bler tringat psal gmbr ni..cuak nk mati kot..haha.. padahal diorg ok je kot,..yg kecik ati sume 2, b'lakon je...paling klakar bler niera anta msg minta maaf,

maafkan kami:-

maafkan kami

maafkan kami..teng4..

maafkan kami..

maafkan kami!!

kemaafan di pinta dari 3 bdak nakal

(leader : niera, uploadr:waniey, a'tant: ziela)

dak laki siap gelak terbahak-bahak kot bce msg ni..sengal tul..

pepun aku b'syukur diorg x kcik ati even niat aku mmg utk b'gurau je kot. xde niat lain pn..p dlm dh d maaf kn 2, g klas still cuak gak.. siap tunduk2 muka bler jmpe diorg..segan siot...haha..but ni kenangn..knangan bst..thanks kwan2..

so soaln nye , adakh aku nakal? haha lu pikir lh sndiri...

WASALAM....

MENAKUTKAN!!!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

makin lme makin seram plak aku duk kt taman ni..sebabnye makin ramai org yg x brape nk btul...eee menakutkan..slame ni x pnah plak kne kacau..klu stakat bdk2 x ckup umr kt tepi simpang 2 normal lh kn..nme pn x ckup umr so fikirn x matang lg...i2 aku fham..p klu dh kne kacau dgn india yg x brape nk btul cmne plak..x pn dgn org yg ntah spe ntah tbe2 minx no fon kte pe cite????mmg mnakut kn...ni br 2 kejadian,..klu jd lg??? meh lh aku cite skit kejadian nye..

kejadian 1
smlm mse aku blik dr test kul 10 lbih, tbe2 de lori stop..igt kn kot dia t'ganggu sbb aku, zila n nira jln kt tgah jln kn..biasalh duk borak2 mlm2..x sdar tbe2 duk tgah jln..so kitorg pn ketepi lh utk bg laluan..p dia x jln pn..siap bkak tingkp then ckp bkn2..ee takut lh...ble kitorg jln skit, dia pn gerak skit..memang bongok giler lh..menakutkan..pastu kitorg jln lh laju2.nsib baik dia trus blah..eee sengal habis..pastu xnk aku b'lari plak blik rmh..skali de abg anir daa,,.. blh plak dia gelak je..adoi lh bang, xnk tlg lngsung yerk..ee cm nk ngis pn de..lpas ni de lg test..mest blik mlm gak..cmne???takut lh..

kejadian 2..
td aku n zila g mkn kt foodcourt. dh lh de mamt2 yg x btul yg pndg je kitorg start dr trun bas smpai lh suapan yg t'akhir..ee rse nk korek je bijik mata diorg...pastu tbe2 de sorg mamat ni dtg kt kitorg.. dia tny,

 " dik, awk duk uitm ke?"

"a'ah.."

"blh bg no fon x??"

(dlm hati kitorg pahal plak tbe2 minx no fon ni? knl pn x..aku ngeleng..)

"xde"

"xkn xde???"

(aku ngeleng je..)

"awak pn xde??" dia tny zila plak.

(cpat2 zila ngeleng..)

" awk duk mne? taming sari ke?"

(mse ni kitorang dh nk gelak dh..gaya cm tau bis p blh plak kte kitorg duk TS..kn dh kantoi.TS utk man lh bro...)

nasib baik pastu dia trus blah..ee ntah pape ntah. sesuka hati je minx no fon org..aiyoo lh..

mmg lh menakutkn..bt aku takut je nk kuar sorg2..p x kn tiap mse nk b'tman??leceh giler.xpe lh aku doa2 xde pape yg akn t'jadi..inshaallah..korg pn doakn xde pape yg jd kt aku k...thanks a lot..

WASALAM....